I am better than most people on deviant art, i don't want to sound cocky here but i would say i'm in the top 5%. I think some people don't even take this site seriously and it really saddens me when i think of those people and what they are doing to this site. Sometimes i feel so down i just want to slit my wrists and wish it was all over. I know i can get through this and i will! I will inspire, i will create!